salam alayk

hmm, sebenarnya saya agak stressed. aarrgghh! stress dengan benda yang remeh saja. stress nak menulis. mood tuh ada, tapi nak susun isi tuh agak berterabur. jadi, saya maklumkan, apa yang saya tulis berjam-jam dari tadi di'save'kan sebagai draft saja. heee.

ingat tak dulu saya cakap, the earliest i can travel is during early july. tapi, alhamdulillah, Allah permudahkan. Dia bawa saya jalan-jalan kali ini ke manali by the end of may. sebenarnya, saya terpaksa ponteng kelas seminggu sebab nak teman kakak saya jalan-jalan india. waktu tuh agak stress dengan exam, quiz, viva, presentation, cake orders, and tambah-tambah, kena uruskan segalanya tentang percutian ni.

but it worth, alhamdulillah. Allah ajar macam mana nak jadi murabbi kepada orang lain. macam mana nak uruskan mad'u. macam mana nak betulkan kompas perjalanan tatkala diri sendiri futur. macam mana nak bergantung padaNya tatkala semua ikhtiar lost. macam mana nak jaga mutabaah amal sebaiknya. susah. susah. susah. but, as long as kita believe we can do it, kita boleh.

At-Taubah, 9:41:

berangkatlah kamu baik dengan rasa ringan maupun berat, dan berjihadlah dengan harta dan jiwamu di jalan Allah. yang demikian itu adalah lebih baik bagimu jika kamu mengetahui.

beramal. beramal sama ada kita rasa gembira atau sedih, lapang atau sempit and susah atau senang. nak jadi amal sendiri pun susah, apatah lagi jaga amal orang lain. begini rupanya jadi murabbi. hmm.

moga Allah permudahkan. sebenarnya, banyak ja cerita nak kongsi, tapi kita hold on dulu. kita kasi can dekat teaser ni. lol.

rohtang pass. 3978m. -6C. made it!

okay, mohon doakan dapat habiskan post travelogue mesir, turkey, manali dan shimla before cuti august. sebab september nak ada travelogue baru pula. insyaAllah.

moga Allah berikan kalian syurgaNya. Amin!!

salam alayk

i often found myself hard to laugh and hard to cry as well. when people could laugh for a mere thing, i only managed to smile as if i was entertained by it, in fact i didn't. and i'm not a person who could cry easily for trivial thing as well. however, i often cried when farewell comes. especially with close people.

aina's farewell was still floating in my mind vividly. it was as if she was leaving manipal yesterday although it's been a year since then. when she got those problems, it was tough for her. and it was hard for me as well. being the one closest to her put me in a big responsibility to take care of her, brought her to see mentor, to meet doctor, to eat with her, to sleep with her, send her to meet someone while i'm late for school and sometimes, i need to skip my class. it was hard.

maybe waktu tuh, Allah nak uji sejauh mana persahabatan tuh kerana Allah. aina was having depression during that time. and it was super chronic till she became suspicious to everyone including me. so, things became harder then. she thought everyone thinking she is a bad person and everyone was laughing at her, blablabla. if you think this is just a mere problem, then don't. because, although she was with me all the time, she always found it was hard to trust me, her closest friend though every time she felt guilty for being like that.

memang waktu tuh susah sangat nak convince dekat aina to trust Allah even she afraid to trust humans. but, from my side, i always gave her advice to do this and that, but talking seem to be easy for me, the one who need to do all those things was her! so, all choice and changes depend on her. and she was yet, clueless to decide. memang pening kepala.

things happened in 2 weeks, yet so fast! she was admitted to hospital, her family came twice to india, and she went back to malaysia to get treatment and got back to manipal.

and the comeback was just to take few things before she went back for good. she continuing her study in malaysia. Allah..

waktu tuh memang rasa sangat sedih yang melampau. until now, i can still reminisce her car gone from my sight and i cried at anis's shoulder. it was tough for me, and after all that we encountered, Allah had plan it this way. Allah.

i cried few days and always texted her mom about her progress. i don't know whom i should be friend with, who will eat with me, who will share all her laugh with me and secrets, etc.

and up until now, i still miss her badly. alhamdulillah, she is doing good in malaysia. insyaAllah, that is the best for her. and insyaAllah this is also the best for me.

Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not.

the reason why i write this post is because hazim's farewell remind me so much of aina's. and may Allah had plan what's the best for us, insyaAllah.

all the best hazim for your future undertakings! and to aina, i miss u badly. ;)

while on the road to jaipur. aina dan peace.

hazim dan peace.

doakan yang terbaik untuk mereka dan kita semua. moga Allah berkati. :)

salam alayk.

last week was quite hectic for me. so busy with study, baking and all. so, i was quite miserable last week. annual day was held last friday, it means that we will be having holiday in saturday, insyaAllah. turned that it happened. so, on friday night, i finished myself with house chores, baking orders and doing notes so that i'm totally off on saturday. the whole day! alhamdulillah.

for those who are still clueless where we were going last saturday, here is the answer. we went for snorkelling and scuba diving at netrani island, murudeshwar. after subuh, we took off at 5.45 am by taxi and reached there by 7.15 am. and subhanallah, the view during dawn was super beautiful. i didnt sleep on my way there, so, i took the chances to snap some good photos. hehe. and since it was a last minute plan, we were still trying to refine our intention just for Allah. we really hope that our musafir, insyaAllah did some benefit for us. and while on our way, we were still thinking what's the hikmah we're going there. wallahu ahlam.

upon reaching there, we need to wait for an hour because the office will be opened at 9 am. so, we took a stroll around the sea. the wind was quite strong and cold, winter is coming. hehe. we took our breakfast there and having dhuha. subhanallah, it was quite new for me, and such a bliss. the dhuha was so comforting with the waves and the wind. it was still early in the morning and we felt so calm.

then, we registered and signed our liability of loss and risk formed. it's kinda like you are signing your death form. it states that the company will not responsible for any casualty. but, seriously, they really take care of us there. so, we took a bot to netrani island and the journey will be around 1 hour. while in the boat, they will teach you how to dive, equalise our pressure when we are going deeper, the emergency things, hand signals and many more. but the thing is, no practical.

once we reached there, everyone got their own instructor and so as we. mine taught me how to breath using oxygen tank and blabla, and five minutes later, i found myself in the sea bottom with fishes around me. it was my first time of diving. i did snorkeling before but the feelings was very different. u got to move with fish and see the surface with some sun rays fall upon the sea surface. alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah.

every time i saw fish or anything, it always came up in my mind that they also berzikir and bertasbih to Allah in every inch of their movement. how can i not to? hehe. and subhanallah, inside the sea, you will never hear anything, thus everything will be very very peaceful. even when at first, i was panicked. because we need to go inside the water secara terbalik. like u sit at the corner of the boat, and the guy will push you backwards. siapa yang tak panik, huhu? then, by the time i saw the bottom of the sea, i quickly became calm and very relaxed. and i forgot every fear i felt when they taught bout emergency things. alhamdulillah.

we were diving for 30 minutes and snorkelling as long as we want. then, around 4pm, we took off to mainland. i didnt feel anything at all. but, by the time i reached home, i felt sort of longing to be there back. underwater is a peaceful place. i didnt see any danger by doing that as what people tend to say. hehe.

so, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah for giving us this opportunities. i reminisced back what anis nur said when she returned to the boat;

"aida, memang sebab ni kot Allah nak tunjuk. sebab cantik sangat. Allah nak kita tengok benda ni.". syukur.

And if whatever trees upon the earth were pens and the sea [was ink], replenished thereafter by seven [more] seas, the words of Allah would not be exhausted. Indeed, Allah is Exalted in Might and Wise. (31:27)

so, here are the pictures. i spent loads of time choosing and editing these, so enjoy! :)

sunrise. :3

first view of sea

sunrise near savannah area.

man out of nowhere

finally, here! in murudeshwar.

at dreamz diving office

filling oxygen tank in pile of water

the gear

to be~

anis panjat lori untuk ke pantai

seaside

the biggest Shiva statue in karnataka i think.

anjing tak bangun pagi lagi.

waiting for our boat

off we go!

arabian sea is quite rough as usual.

netrani island. 30 minutes more.

a cave on the island.

our diving spot

indian guys who were with us.

anisses!

anis nur and her diving instructor

stone fish. camouflaged.

me with my instructor

dayaye!

tanah gersang

i love the rocks colour. sandy brown to white to dark choc. hee..

alhamdulillah. so, if anyone want to go there, pergilah. kembaralah di bumi Allah and saksikan betapa Allah Maha Bijaksana and Maha Indah. insyaAllah. moga mendapat ibrah!

the company: dreamzdiving
total package fee: rs4500.