Assalamualaikum!

Pernah terfikir when we started to plan what to do with our life, we often stick to many things? Macam semua benda nak buat. Ended up, nothing has been done. Me is in the same situation.

For the past few years, I have a thing with music, books, dentistry, travel, photography, baking, coffee, fashion, etc. So many ideas came for my future plan. So, I think why not doing all together? Bila dah lama-lama tuh, benda berlaku dengan sangat perlahan and macam tak berhasil sangat. Dia berhasil, but can go nowhere. And I was so busy with study to focus to other areas. Still, I have my passion in those areas.

So, lately I bought this book written by Saiful Nang. Kisah Orang Menang. Reading first few pages pun dah buat saya motivated. Thank you, Saiful. Bila baca buku tuh, I realised yang I haven't done much yet, not good enough to achieve my dream. In my opinion, it's okay for we to have many dreams like what I've stated above, but what's not okay is when we just being in our comfort zone and have thoughts that 'owh, I think I'm doing good.' but actually you haven't.

Reading that book really really makes me motivated. So, I continued back what I've started. Recently, I've been occupied with study and have no time for those things. And waktu tu lah semua ideas and interest datang, made me study less and berangan more. Hehe. But then, whenever that things come, I will write that ideas in my notebook and pastikan yang I akan usahakan that thing after exams.

So, here it is!

Bruleed Lemon Tart.

This recipe came from one of the world's renowned patisserie chef. After years of simple baking (yeah, I can say that), I decided to indulge more into patisserie desserts because it looks tempting and promising, insyaAllah.

I had a history with lemon curd before using other recipe. It didn't turned out well and too tangy for for me.This recipe calls for lemon cream and wallahi, I love this cream! Super silky and the taste is very sublime, but enough lemon. Can't say much but you need to try this! So good! And one more thing, I think I mess with the crust. Maybe I put too much flour for it to become quite crusty. But I'm not sure how tart should be taste. I think I need to do some dessert tasting. :D

Enough chit chat. Till then, assalamualaikum.

salam alayk!

fuhh.. lately, i had several packed, busy and restlessness days. i couldn't say it was tough, i just enjoyed and alhamdulillah, till now, i'm good insyaAllah.

with so many things to do, and so many aims to achieve, and so many dreams to strive, i'm still here trying to adapt my new life. hmm, exactly not a new life, but basically new routine.

life as a dental student might not as busy as medicine student. but ours are more tiring since we have so much practicals to finish everyday. plus, the class will start at 8-5 with break at 9-9.30 and 12.30-2.00. it could be easy if you don't bring usrah or adik-adik, don't have additional life (hobbies) and you love study forever like a nerdy.

block 3 is much more busy than block 1 and 2. it is not because i have more things to do, it just that i'm becoming better in my time management insyaAllah. basically, below is my everyday routine.

5-5.30: wake up. solat, mathurat.
6-7.00: golden times. (making cakes if there is any order/ study if any quiz or doze off due to short night)
7.00: prepare for class
8-4.30: class
4.30-5.30: break
5.30-6.30: exercise (yup, i exercise almost everyday either gym or tennis)
6.30: prepare for maghrib or cook
7.30: dinner and isyak
9.00: start study or do homework (might vary from doing practicals journal to planning my next trip! if got orders, baking!)
10-01.00: sleep time. i dont have definite time for sleeping.

and the routine keeps on repeating every single day. it was tiring though. in my old routine, i usually dont study at all. only study last minute, read the notes and gamble for the test! but now, i try myself to do every subject's notes soon after class. it was not easy at first because it's time-consuming. but i realised that by doing notes, actually i'm studying about that topic. so, no worries.

honestly, during my few first gym workout, i felt tired. but now, my body was accustomed with it. so, whenever i step off the treadmill, my body felt rejuvenated, light and fit. alhamdulillah.

and baking. for those who are so into baking, you know that baking is very tiring. buying the ingredients, making cake through various steps, then, you need to bake it. then, wash the dishes. then, when the cake is done, need to wait for it to cool down, then, you need to make the topping and decorate it and again, washes the dishes. put it into the freezer. then, make cake box (india didnt provide me any cake boxes, so i made mine), then, waiting for the customer to come. this is for one cake. imagine in a day, i got orders for red velvet, butter caramel and chocolate banana cakes! and i need to do delivery! super tiring.

so, that's a brief about my boring life, yet meaningful.

few years ago, i love to watch japanese movies. of those who know, japanese always try to make movies or dramas that can relate with real life. because the japanese are too busy with working until they forgot to reflect what they had done. when the times comes, they become weak and reach the limit. and they break down, maybe forever.

we, live as a human. as a servant and as a khalifah. in which, we will never rest from these two things. when we become busy, always take some time to look back what we had done and reflect them. don't go too far to achieve what we want because at the end of the day, it is the effort that count the most, not the results. one of my ukhti, Fuzah said that,

"kita kena sentiasa perbetulkan niat sebelum, semasa dan selepas."

in Al-Kahfi: 103-105, Allah tells us about those who think they had done their best, but at the end, they didnt.

Say, [O Muhammad], "Shall we [believers] inform you of the greatest losers as to [their] deeds?

[They are] those whose effort is lost in worldly life, while they think that they are doing well in work."

Those are the ones who disbelieve in the verses of their Lord and in [their] meeting Him, so their deeds have become worthless; and We will not assign to them on the Day of Resurrection any importance.

buat penat je kan? but still, it's never too late.

so, whenever you are in the middle of struggling to do something, niatkan benda ni sebagai ibadah. insyaAllah, Allah terima. through that way, at least your life meant something. tak nak lah bila dah penat-penat dekat dunia, then, bila jumpa neraca al-mizan, habuk pun tak ada. nauzubillah hi minzalik.

bila kita sibuk, kita akan hargai masa rehat kita betul, akan solat betul untuk hayati solat itu satu kerehatan, cuba manfaatkan masa dekat kawan betul2. Alhamdulillah for the nikmat islam dan iman. Alhamdulillah.

new recipes: banana caramel cake!

hedaya's birthday cake. chocolate moist cake with banana coins. ehehe.

Pray the best for me and all muslims in this world. may Allah bless us in here and hereafter. :)

p/s: initially, this supposed to be a quick update, however, my hearts yearned to tell more. hee. sorry for boring post.














  

salam alayk.

class had been held for almost a week since the start of year 2. alhamdulillah, it was ok. too bad i always got some back pain since i was sitting on the dental chair for almost 3 hours, doing caries thingy. yeah, that's the future of my career. :)

my cake business is indeed, very good at first. it received many positive responses, alhamdulillah. so far, i got 5 orders confirmed for this week. i don't want to go rushing in my first few steps, worrying that i'm not be able to cope with it so, i decided to make maximum of 2 cakes per day. i dont want it to be a burden for me. it supposed to be my passion, not my burden, right? so, do pray for me. pray that i will be able to do things i want purely, not the things i was ordered to do for.

just now, a customer named Heerak came and took the cake. i was really glad that he was amazed with the beauty of cake. i hope, it turned out delicious, insyaAllah. so, this was the one i did just now.

heerak's cake

why i bake?

because i love cake! :) and i want people to love it too. and i always want to make the best cake, so that people couldn't resist it at all and like it. whenever things turned out ugly, it was always disappointing to see my cake went into dustbin and no one enjoyed it. of course, there were countless of times when i hurt my finger touching hot caramel, cake turned into plastic thing, and such.how i was always motivated to keep continue? because it's my passion.

how beautiful could it be if islam is my passion. how amazed i would be if i can all out in giving dakwah? it's been years since my first tarbiyah and now, i'm still wondering why i just love this path, why i dont want to go through it? why is it so hard for me to just go and spread dakwah like the sahabat and my akhawats. why is it so hard? why i think it is hard? why i'm still reluctant?

i still remember there was an ukhti of mine, wani shared this quote with me;

"the mankind should just die, if they didnt want to do their job; which is khalifah and ibadah."

why not? the only reasons they are alive in this world was just to be His servant and do what He asked us to do. when i went through my wall in facebook, i saw many posts about islam. one of them was about our muslims brothers and sisters in arab, be it in egypt, palestin, syria, turkey and many more. one thing that came across my mind was that, owh, the time had come. it's our time to fight for islam, for Allah. akhir zaman tak lama lagi.

i'm scared of course. i'm trilled too. and i also wanna be a part of islam too. apart of its fighter. for the cause of Allah. who doesnt want syaheed? who doesnt want to go into Allah's paradise? is there any? i believe no.

but why i became like this.

becase i think islam as my only religion, not as deen. that's why i felt it interrupted my lifestyle, and i felt burdened. because i only think it such a mere religion, same as some of my chinese and indian friends. :(

i wanna change the mindset. i know i must. but the courage needs whole lot of effort. still, i know i have my akhawats behind me, and the most important, Allah. :)

and i always wondering, how amazed Allah's fate is; to let me write this post and suddenly, flattered my heart into it in the middle of futur. :)

sunset from my crib

Alhamdulillah.

cake with chocolate cream filling

covered in crumb coat before going into freezer

runny ganache

nicely decorated

me so excited!

the inner part.