Assalamualaikum!

Pernah terfikir when we started to plan what to do with our life, we often stick to many things? Macam semua benda nak buat. Ended up, nothing has been done. Me is in the same situation.

For the past few years, I have a thing with music, books, dentistry, travel, photography, baking, coffee, fashion, etc. So many ideas came for my future plan. So, I think why not doing all together? Bila dah lama-lama tuh, benda berlaku dengan sangat perlahan and macam tak berhasil sangat. Dia berhasil, but can go nowhere. And I was so busy with study to focus to other areas. Still, I have my passion in those areas.

So, lately I bought this book written by Saiful Nang. Kisah Orang Menang. Reading first few pages pun dah buat saya motivated. Thank you, Saiful. Bila baca buku tuh, I realised yang I haven't done much yet, not good enough to achieve my dream. In my opinion, it's okay for we to have many dreams like what I've stated above, but what's not okay is when we just being in our comfort zone and have thoughts that 'owh, I think I'm doing good.' but actually you haven't.

Reading that book really really makes me motivated. So, I continued back what I've started. Recently, I've been occupied with study and have no time for those things. And waktu tu lah semua ideas and interest datang, made me study less and berangan more. Hehe. But then, whenever that things come, I will write that ideas in my notebook and pastikan yang I akan usahakan that thing after exams.

So, here it is!

Bruleed Lemon Tart.

This recipe came from one of the world's renowned patisserie chef. After years of simple baking (yeah, I can say that), I decided to indulge more into patisserie desserts because it looks tempting and promising, insyaAllah.

I had a history with lemon curd before using other recipe. It didn't turned out well and too tangy for for me.This recipe calls for lemon cream and wallahi, I love this cream! Super silky and the taste is very sublime, but enough lemon. Can't say much but you need to try this! So good! And one more thing, I think I mess with the crust. Maybe I put too much flour for it to become quite crusty. But I'm not sure how tart should be taste. I think I need to do some dessert tasting. :D

Enough chit chat. Till then, assalamualaikum.

salam alayk

lately, i've been craving for malaysian food. not the one that we used to cook everyday such as ayam masak merah, kari ayam or ayam masak kicap, but something more. last time, i made ayam percik. so, have a look!




meanwhile, blend one big onion, 2 or 3 tablespoon of garlic paste, lemongrass and some ginger.


then, tumis bahan blend sampai pecah minyak or naik bau. then, letak chili paste bergantung kepada kepedasan, serai yang ditumbuk, sikit asam jawa (sikit), 1 cawan santan. biar sampai masak and letak gula dan garam.

sambil tunggu kuah masak, ambil ayam yang dah dimasak and celupkan dalam kuah dan bakar semula. kasi sedap sikit. then, dah siap!


ayam percik yang dah siap.

this recipe is quite easy and very basic since i didn't have any spice needed. but, it was very tasty and delicious. hehe. but one tips i could give is that, don;t try to put so much asam jawa or asam keping. letak sikit ja. mine rasa masam2 sikit, but it was fine. at least, i did it. alhamdulillah.

while i'm on duty in the kitchen, i prefer to cook non-typical dish. i think it's time for us to try doing something new. and don't be too lazy to cook something good for our housemates. kita hidup dengan orang, kena give and take always. although kita student, we must do our best in everything we do. insyaAllah.

try to do it and let me know. sorry if any mistakes! alhamdulillah. :)

salam alayk.

class had been held for almost a week since the start of year 2. alhamdulillah, it was ok. too bad i always got some back pain since i was sitting on the dental chair for almost 3 hours, doing caries thingy. yeah, that's the future of my career. :)

my cake business is indeed, very good at first. it received many positive responses, alhamdulillah. so far, i got 5 orders confirmed for this week. i don't want to go rushing in my first few steps, worrying that i'm not be able to cope with it so, i decided to make maximum of 2 cakes per day. i dont want it to be a burden for me. it supposed to be my passion, not my burden, right? so, do pray for me. pray that i will be able to do things i want purely, not the things i was ordered to do for.

just now, a customer named Heerak came and took the cake. i was really glad that he was amazed with the beauty of cake. i hope, it turned out delicious, insyaAllah. so, this was the one i did just now.

heerak's cake

why i bake?

because i love cake! :) and i want people to love it too. and i always want to make the best cake, so that people couldn't resist it at all and like it. whenever things turned out ugly, it was always disappointing to see my cake went into dustbin and no one enjoyed it. of course, there were countless of times when i hurt my finger touching hot caramel, cake turned into plastic thing, and such.how i was always motivated to keep continue? because it's my passion.

how beautiful could it be if islam is my passion. how amazed i would be if i can all out in giving dakwah? it's been years since my first tarbiyah and now, i'm still wondering why i just love this path, why i dont want to go through it? why is it so hard for me to just go and spread dakwah like the sahabat and my akhawats. why is it so hard? why i think it is hard? why i'm still reluctant?

i still remember there was an ukhti of mine, wani shared this quote with me;

"the mankind should just die, if they didnt want to do their job; which is khalifah and ibadah."

why not? the only reasons they are alive in this world was just to be His servant and do what He asked us to do. when i went through my wall in facebook, i saw many posts about islam. one of them was about our muslims brothers and sisters in arab, be it in egypt, palestin, syria, turkey and many more. one thing that came across my mind was that, owh, the time had come. it's our time to fight for islam, for Allah. akhir zaman tak lama lagi.

i'm scared of course. i'm trilled too. and i also wanna be a part of islam too. apart of its fighter. for the cause of Allah. who doesnt want syaheed? who doesnt want to go into Allah's paradise? is there any? i believe no.

but why i became like this.

becase i think islam as my only religion, not as deen. that's why i felt it interrupted my lifestyle, and i felt burdened. because i only think it such a mere religion, same as some of my chinese and indian friends. :(

i wanna change the mindset. i know i must. but the courage needs whole lot of effort. still, i know i have my akhawats behind me, and the most important, Allah. :)

and i always wondering, how amazed Allah's fate is; to let me write this post and suddenly, flattered my heart into it in the middle of futur. :)

sunset from my crib

Alhamdulillah.

cake with chocolate cream filling

covered in crumb coat before going into freezer

runny ganache

nicely decorated

me so excited!

the inner part.