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my previous post gave such a big impact to me, i could say. lately, ive been struggling to do things with the niat to satisfy Him, to gain His redha. but it aint easy. man. however, still, im very grateful that Allah had chosen me to encounter the test instead of other people.

it was all started when i watched this video. i found this in Facebook. one thing i found remarkable is that "kematian yang menghidupkan".



if we were asked

"when do you want to die?"

          "when my iman is at the peak!"

          "when i already finished my job and die in peaceful manner.."

          etc.

well, i want to ask every each of us,

"when do we get our iman at the peak?"

"NOW?"

          "no."

"then, when?"

          "i dont know."

"then, when you want to die?"

          "well, i think i already answer your question. err.."

the reason we live is to get die. so that we will be able to meet our Creator, our Beloved, Allah. and if we were asked with that question, we should say "NOW!!"

why?

as a muslim, we live to gain His redha in everything that we do. so, when we are truly truly immersed in His love and His mercy, we should feel that we are super eagerly to meet Him.  because we are so passionate for Him. Longing for Him. wanting to get out of this world so badly (read: jail).

thus, this is what ive been feeling lately. i really want to meet Him. to show Him what I had done in this world just for Him. and it made me think of death in every seconds in my life. whatever i did, i gave a thought whether Allah like me to do it or not. Alhamdulillah, Allah had shown me the guide.

.since death awaits us everyday (taufik chauwdry's quote), we should maintain or upgrade our iman at the top. super top! at all times. so that when we meet Allah, we are ready and we will have nothing to regret about what we had done in the world previously. by hook or crook, we need to do what we supposed to do, which is 51:56 and 2:30. then, we will not die in vain.

And [mention, O Muhammad], when your Lord said to the angels, "Indeed, I will make upon the earth a successive authority." They said, "Will You place upon it one who causes corruption therein and sheds blood, while we declare Your praise and sanctify You?" Allah said, "Indeed, I know that which you do not know." (2:30)

And I did not create the jinn and mankind except to worship Me. (51:56)

even when im taking shower, i tried to niat that this is for my ibadah. when im sleeping, i tried to do it for Allah. when im eating, blablabla. and to always remember Allah in every part in my life is not an easy job. because syaitan is there. our lust is there. our bad friends are there. the surroundings and many more. but,

And We have already created man and know what his soul whispers to him, and We are closer to him than [his] jugular vein (50:16)

 Allah is there for us! He is even closer to us, than our own blood vessels. for your information, the blood vessels in the neck (internal jugular vein) is one of the most important vein in our body. and Allah is closer than these blood vessels. thus, it showed how significant and important Allah is! Allah will always helps us in any predicaments. and He will always be there for us.

believe me. if you are really eager to meet Allah, He will feel the same, in fact much more! Allah is missing us more than we do. and one hadis qudsi,

By Abu Dzar r.a.:
Allah's Messenger said that Allah said: He who comes with a good deed, its reward will be ten like that or even more. And he who comes with vice, his reward will be only one like that, or I can forgive him. He who draws close to Me a hand's span, I will draw close to him an arm's length. And whoever draws near Me an arm's length, I will draw near him a fathom's length. And whoever comes to Me walking, I will go to him running. And whoever faces Me with sins nearly as great as the earth, I will meet him with forgiveness nearly as great as that, provided he does not worship something with me. (This Hadith is sound and reported by Muslim, Ibn Majah and Ahmad in his Musnad). Another prophetic tradition says: (He who met Allah associating anything with Him, will enter Hell) (Muslim)

do make a pray that we will be able to meet Him in a proper way, blessed one. die as the martyrs of Islam, and we shall live forever, insyaAllah. :)

And never think of those who have been killed in the cause of Allah as dead. Rather, they are alive with their Lord, receiving provision, (3:169)

wallahu ahlam.
p/s: doakan yang terbaik untuk finals! 2 minggu lagi! :)